Love affairs can be broken down in chapters but there’s not a definitive end to the love affairs where there’s still affection involved. I’m a fool for the definitive end. I loathe ambiguity. Writing the book everyday eliminates ambiguity.
The book is telling me that I’m still uncertain. I hate that.
The first time I heard ‘The Look of Love‘, I thought who is the sexy, confident man? And then I danced my ass off.
The life lessons — it takes a lot to love you. No one should ever get their life and love lessons from a pop song because pop songs are the work of the devil and libertines. But if you must, there’s no better bible than ABC’s fully detailed breakdown of recognizing and responding to the look of love. The one thing, the one thing….
Once a week, I’m poked for blood. The search for a vein that is not thin & scrawny is unpleasant. I have my own personal vein whisperer who is patient with the search. She doesn’t poke needlessly. She has me put my arm under warm water for 3 minutes or more. Then, the search continues. The vein whisperer suggests exercises to make my veins pop. I promise to comply. Right after I write this blog post.
Prick. The vein is found. I never ever look as my blood fills the vial. It happens so fast. Then the IV goes in and the treatment begins. I wasn’t made for this. And yet I was.
Love & Basketball!Monica is so in love with Quincy that she aches! I felt the ache from the screen. And when I saw the movie, I was not in love with anyone so there was no emotional confusion. Ever been that in love? I hope the answer is yes and I hope the answer is no.
Favorite part? 1:47…
I smell you in my dreams/But now when we’re face to face/You won’t look me in the eye/no time no friendship no love
You don’t know how hearts burn/for a love that cannot live/but never dies
Walking around with this knowledge is an unpleasant sensation. It’s not a constant hurt, but when it’s touched by a song, a memory or an old email, the burn pulsates. And then you fall into the despair. For a moment.
***The Thursday Interview is a showcase for creators, innovators and troublemakers to share news and insight about the creative impetus & inspirations behind their latest projects. This week, John Threat, a drifter who lives to entertain us all.
Motto: Dubium sapientiae initium. Descartes said that shit. I dont know what it means. Sounds cool as fuck.
My current project is…. Monsters! It’s a show about these two room mates dick and dash who live together and can’t stand each other. The fight, they curse, they drink and smoke, just like all other roommates, except they are monsters and every episode a band comes thru to rock the house and then they eat ‘em.
I got the idea for the project….
Some have traced it back to a chick with tattoos I banged once , but I came up with it while standing in the desert in Utah pissing on some artifacts and then wrote it in Connecticut Muffin in NY on a iPad betwixt mocha and a croissant. I’m kinda a dick.
The production process for the project is….
It was 100 laughs the whole way except when it wasn’t. It was mega pass out type hot, it was dangerous, there was vomit , blood, sweat and tears, and torn miscuses. It only got finished because it was funny 95% of the time.
My favorite production memory is….
Well, probably when a actor tripped in front of a female actor and cursed me out like a dog on camera, which is the wrong thing to say, but the right thing would be to say Alex when he performed in Speedos the Tetris dance of love.
Shout outs to:
Marc Raco and Daniel Wolfe who play the lead characters Dick and Dash who fucking rock and I owe big time, Jessica Bledman who had my back both as art director and personal crisis management and Corey Ulric who took on the herculean task of shooting and lighting this beast rain or shine and commercial director Diane Martel who liked the script day one and jumped on to help produce it and mega shout out for bands that came thru to rock the house (Makeout, The Shondes, and Game Rebellion) just for beer and all my friends that gave their pennies on Kickstarter!
Is it ridiculous for anyone to still believe in romance? I know this is an artificial yet beautifully curated take on a burgeoning romance, but is it wrong to still desire the kind of emotion that the song and video stir up? Is it so wrong to want to live in the emotional place where it’s okay to be nice, thoughtful & kind and receive it in return? I’m wondering if wanting this is a convenient delusion tactic I use to hide out from the stresses & disappointments of life?