What does ‘closer to fine’ mean?
Closer to contentment? Joy? Peace? Well-adjustment?
What could ‘closer to fine’ mean for me? My first impulse is to believe I would be happier if I were a little bit less pissed off at a few people.
Person #1: my ex-boyfriend. He moved out as I was recuperating from having a blood clot. I feel like I’ve been abandoned by someone I loved. Which I was.
It’s depressing dealing with being sick and a breakup. Just mangled guts pretending. And I know I’m not the first or last person to be living in this circle of hell, but there are days when I honestly want to punch him in his fucking face. Again and again and again. Doesn’t matter that that would not improve a damn thing.
So there it is. I’m not closer to fine. Still looking over the abyss of rage and disappointment. Daring myself to give up and fall into it.