Love affairs can be broken down in chapters but there’s not a definitive end to the love affairs where there’s still affection involved. I’m a fool for the definitive end. I loathe ambiguity. Writing the book everyday eliminates ambiguity.
The book is telling me that I’m still uncertain. I hate that.
The first time I heard ‘The Look of Love‘, I thought who is the sexy, confident man? And then I danced my ass off.
The life lessons — it takes a lot to love you. No one should ever get their life and love lessons from a pop song because pop songs are the work of the devil and libertines. But if you must, there’s no better bible than ABC’s fully detailed breakdown of recognizing and responding to the look of love. The one thing, the one thing….
Once a week, I’m poked for blood. The search for a vein that is not thin & scrawny is unpleasant. I have my own personal vein whisperer who is patient with the search. She doesn’t poke needlessly. She has me put my arm under warm water for 3 minutes or more. Then, the search continues. The vein whisperer suggests exercises to make my veins pop. I promise to comply. Right after I write this blog post.
Prick. The vein is found. I never ever look as my blood fills the vial. It happens so fast. Then the IV goes in and the treatment begins. I wasn’t made for this. And yet I was.
Love & Basketball!Monica is so in love with Quincy that she aches! I felt the ache from the screen. And when I saw the movie, I was not in love with anyone so there was no emotional confusion. Ever been that in love? I hope the answer is yes and I hope the answer is no.
Favorite part? 1:47…
I smell you in my dreams/But now when we’re face to face/You won’t look me in the eye/no time no friendship no love
You don’t know how hearts burn/for a love that cannot live/but never dies
Walking around with this knowledge is an unpleasant sensation. It’s not a constant hurt, but when it’s touched by a song, a memory or an old email, the burn pulsates. And then you fall into the despair. For a moment.