#throatpunchtuesday: I feel weird that I feel this way but…


“When I watch a movie, or see a play, or read a funny article, all I can think about is how much I want to tell you about it. I just want to tell you about everything. If that’s not a good enough reason to be together, I don’t know what is.”

I feel weird that I want to have someone in my life that I can share this kind of stuff with and who looks forward to doing the same with/for me. I feel weird and worried about it because sometimes, I don’t know if it’s going to happen. I worry that I can do my best, become the bestest me ever and somehow, that piece of life with heads over heels love, trust and fidelity will elude me.

every time it snows, i become a romantic. it’s bizarre but kinda sweet.

what i want and what i need may be two different things.

It’s scary and I have to go lie down now.

My new boyfriend….


My new boyfriend....

WE are so happy together.

and the last #cheesysongoftheday for 2012 is….


Cheesy Song of the Day, December 31:

‘Feel Again’ One Republic

In the beginning, I was gutted and fucked up. Heartbroken. Depressed. Angry.

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That was my mental state on January 1, 2012.  I have so much to say but don’t know how to say it yet.

I loved B.F.’S DAUGHTER….


adored it!  Barbara Stanwyck can do anything.  The ending was the best part.  I’m going to watch it again!

Quote of the day….


Mr. and Mrs. Loving

Cheesy Song of the Day, December 23:
If This World Were MineLuther Vandross & Cheryl Lynn; Marvin Gaye & Tammi Terrell

There is no shame in my saying that we all want to be loved by someone. As I look back over my life in romance, I don’t feel I’ve ever had that. I have been the only one that was unaware of the fraud in a few of these circumstances blindly. When you get divorced, all the truths that come out, you sit there and you go, What the fuck was I doing? What was I doing believing that this person was invested in this way? Which is a fantastically strong humiliation in the best sense. It can make somebody very bitter and very hard and closed off, but I find it does the opposite to me.

Related Reading

“The Loving Story”: How an Interracial Couple Changed a Nation

Today’s sweet thrill….


Cheesy Song of the Day, December 20:

A Kiss To Build A Dream OnLouis Armstrong

A few days ago, crossing the bridge on the Q train, I discovered that I can download ringtones like a fiend. And even more fun? Assigning the ringtones to specific callers!  This dreamy love song was the first assigned song…..and I get so happy every time it rings.

What’s YOUR Cheesy Song of the Day?


When I’m enraged, I play this to get the anger out….


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Cheesy Song of the Day, September 30:

‘James’ The Bangles

I imagine that James started out as an undateable yet attractive alcoholic and somehow, someway the girl in the song thought she could change him.  She convinced herself that she could remake him into a loving, mature boyfriend who wasn’t an emotional and/or life doofus. And after another no show date, another lie, another reality check that James was very comfortable being oblivious and lackadaisical participant in his own life, this song was written and performed with just the right mixture of indignation, rage and what am I doing with this jackass introspection.

I need to play it again.

What’s YOUR Cheesy Song of the Day?