and the last #cheesysongoftheday for 2012 is….

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Cheesy Song of the Day, December 31:

‘Feel Again’ One Republic

In the beginning, I was gutted and fucked up. Heartbroken. Depressed. Angry.

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That was my mental state on January 1, 2012.  I have so much to say but don’t know how to say it yet.

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How I got out from under the covers….

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Cheesy Song of the Day, December 16:
‘Against All Odds’ Phil Collins

The week that was included loneliness, heartbreak, sadness, anxiety, sleeplessness, disappointment, slothery, frustration, arrgh.  It wasn’t the best of times or the worst of times – it was a trying time.  My response: Disco Elf.

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My hat is pink but it has the sparkles.

What’s YOUR Cheesy Song of the Day?

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Pic via.

 

just figured out why I’ve been weepy, cranky and an overall emotional sap….

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….I was getting my period!

After 5 months of being period free thanks to a lovely shot of Lupron, the sucker came back.  I don’t actually call it sucker. I call it Beast because it is a vicious mean-spirited animal that ruins my life for 5-8 days.  It’s rude, messy and ruthless.   38 tampons in a two day period ruthless.  Beast made sure I felt weak all the time. Beast drained all the color from my body.  Beast made me anemic.   Beast hates me and the feeling is mutual.

I know that if I heard today’s Cheesy Song of the Day earlier in the week, I would have been stuck, spiraling, feeling sorry for myself and hating the world. Instead, I heard the good in the sadness.

The only time I will be thankful for Beast.

What’s YOUR Cheesy Song of the Day?

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I’m surprised this didn’t make the list earlier….

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Cropped screenshot of Bette Davis and Joan Crawford from the film Category:Whatever Happened to Baby Jane? (film) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Cheesy Song of the Day, September 15:
‘Just Don’t Want to Be Lonely’ The Main Ingredient

…but then I remembered that my evil twin stops me from being completely honest.  Gee I wonder why.

 What’s YOUR Cheesy Song of the Day?

Cheesy Song of the Day, March 25: ‘Tenderness’ General Public

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I remember dancing to this in my bedroom. And feeling very cool that I was into a Brit group.  My hair would whip around as I danced in glee.  Especially at the bridge part of the song.  Like it that it makes me want to dance the night away and love it because it asks such a sweet question:  where is the tenderness?

Tenderness, thoughtfulness, kindness — all of them — where is it?  How can I practice it today, tomorrow, this week?  I made a choice to be tender with myself today. A good friend died and I decided to not bounce back from being down about her being gone.  There’s no need to rush myself into feeling at peace with her being gone.  I’m being tender about my sadness and longing that she was still here.

 

Cheesy Song of the Day, March 24: ‘Sunday In Savannah’ Nina Simone

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This is my mood for the day.

a day of crying is awful….

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a week of crying is gutwrenching.

*When I saw this scene in ‘Something’s Gotta Give‘, I thought it was rather excessive.  I was wrong.